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| Oh, good story. So, yesterday and today I've been really tired on the way home from work (I work 3rd shift).
And its been really bad. So, today, I needed a way to stay awake. I thought about taking a 5-10 minute nap or calling my friend Andy (he starts work at 7, so we can talk), but I decided to do something different.
I turned up the radio really loudly and sang at the top of my lungs. And when I didn't know the words or there wasn't anything to sing to, I just yelled. I was also laughing the whole way home because I felt so weird yelling at nothing in the car. But it worked. I didn't fall asleep.
YAY!
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| Update on my life: I'm no longer working two jobs. For the past 4
months, I've been working one 3rd shift job. Its just a boring factory
job, not much to say about that.
As of 6 weeks ago, I am back in school. I am taking summer classes at a
community college. Yeah, in case you were wondering, it sucks.
People in their thirties go there and I don't like them at all. They just
don't appeal to me.
So, while working, I thought that since the work I do sucks, I'll want to go
back to school. Then I get back in to school and realize I still don't
like it. At all. In fact, I almost prefer work because of the
simplicity and recordable accomplishment.
But I know that I don’t want to do it long-term because it is
mind-numbingly boring. So, I guess I’m
still not where I should be, but I don’t know where else to go, so I’ll stay
here for now.
In the meantime, I’ve watched the movie Blow and considered
becoming a drug dealer, except I think things have changed quite a bit since
then. So, that’s out, too.
On a more interesting note, I went out to lunch with a
second cousin of mine who is a successful psychologist in Maryland. He was concerned that I seem aimless (I think
that’s a fair assessment), so, long story short, he gave me these steps to
success (that’s what I call them).
1) Set priorities
2) Find something you love
3) Work hard for it
4) Be open to opportunities
And one last piece of advice was, “Don’t
ask why,” because I ask “why?” a lot and when I can’t figure something out, I
kind of get stuck in life.
So, I’ve been trying to apply this
to my life. So far, I made a
budget. I think it’s a good one. It saves a lot of money for things like
short-term, long-term, and car savings.
It pays off my parents and my loan.
And it has money left over for spending.
But I haven’t been able to find anything I love. Granted, I’m not that original. I am a very creative person, but I don’t do
new things a lot; I just keep doing what I’m doing and don’t really
change. That’s a problem.
But I’m not sure if my life can
have a purpose right now. I’m not sure I
have the time. So, for now, I’ll just
keep working, keep going to school, pay off my debt, and save my money. I guess I’m living for the weekends. If anyone has any better ideas, I’d love to
hear them. Now if I could just find that
remote from “Click”…. | | |
| so, I'm working now.
Both jobs are boring, so I have some time to think.
And I've been thinking, I wonder what it would be like to do something interesting?
Maybe someday I'll find out.
I just feel like part of a machine. Like I'm nothing.
And I don't like it. I want to be something.
But this is only temporary. Someday I'll be out of here and it will all be just a memory.
Of course, someday I'll be the same thing.
Now if I could just figure out how to get there.
This is rather rambling, I know, but I've been thinking about these things all week and only now got a chance to put them here.
Good night (work starts at 11).
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| ooh. Sorry for being non-existent on Xanga. I apologize.
Have there been any changes in my life? I've picked up a passion for white tea and even
started brewing it myself, then flavoring it to perfection.
I am endeavoring to adjust my attitude so that I can transform myself into something worth being.
To that effect, I am applying myself to my schoolwork and life in general.
I'll keep you posted.
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Now playing: Enya - Wild Child
via FoxyTunes | | |
| What IS new? I'm not really sure.
I'll be going home soon; my first year at college is almost over.
So, what really happened this year? A lot.
A lot of wasted time, a lot of movies watched, a lot of new music listened to, some friends made, a double major declared (it already feels like a death sentence, but oh well), et cetera.
I think the biggest thing right now is looking forward. I'm looking forward to working this summer, to making the dean's list next semester, to discovering my true potential, to spending my loan money (on college), to (hopefully) taking some type of road trip next year, to living in the basement at our house, and to learning everything I can.
Who knows, maybe I'll even take up exercise. That would be monumental.
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